elizabeth’s blog

dear bloggy,

i’m so depressed rite now.
so many things are rushing thru my head that i felt numb.
seriously numb.
juz felt as tho my heart were squeezed so tight that it’ll explode and break into many tiny little pieces in no time.
plz tell me wat to do.
wat happens next?
wat will become of me?

in a month or two’s time, i’ll be coming to the crossroad.
choosing either path may result at a very different future for me.
choosing either path may break my love ones’ heart.
choosing either path may be vital to my own self.

numb.
speechless.
heartache.

datz how i feel now.

when can de world be a better place for me to live in once again?

my dear turned 21 oredi last SUN.
havent blogged about it yet.
celebrated twice for him:
1 was de night b4 his birthday…
(will not spill de details… sweet memories that are only meant for TWO ;D)
2 was a suprise celebration wif our classmates at Feeling Cafe.

^ pics from that nite… wif cake face… haha

^ entertainment from bday boy

dear bloggy,

omg…. i’ve got curlz (-.-")
i look like an aunty… haha
but i dun care… i need to see a different hairdo.
so sick of starring at my old hairstyle which had been de same for almost 3 years ade.

current updates:
- got FYP documentation to do. Final submission on 25th NOV ‘06
- dear’s birthday coming up this SUN (still no idea how to celebrate for him)
- status: i’m broke (..n christmas is coming!)

current feeling:
- in a dillemma
- worried
- going out of my mind!
- i need a hug =(

elle signing off…

yup… come slap me!!!
haha

WOO HOOO!!!!!
FYP testing finish oredi!!!
oh man… de moment i’ve been waiting for has finally arrived.
*tear* *tear*
oh… and i passed oredi (^.^)v
la-la-la-la-la

ok… enuf wif the hurrays
so, anyway, there are lessons learned thru the whole "journey" of me producing out de system from scratch and completing everthing in about 3 weeks.

What I went thru:
- hell? hahaha…
- oh, i get massagers for my pitiful sight *winkz*
- streamyx hate me. had to put up at dear’s place for a few days.
- major adrenaline rushhhhh….
- sleepless days and nights
(ever slept halfway and get up to code ur program? hmm… maybe i’m getting insane -.-")
- butt cramps (sit too long in front of comp d)
- damn… didn’t know FYP can be so "unhealthy" (lolz)
- stupid owl eyes happen when i’m sleepy
- gone thru a ‘transaction’:
DELETE memory FROM brain WHERE memory=’C#.NET’

INSERT INTO brain(memory) VALUES(’VB.NET’)

Result of FYP-ing day & nite:
- a whole big stack of dirty laundry!! (arghh)
- my room transformed itself into a pigsty
- my shoulder and back still hurts like hell
- a cracked mirror (bcos of my zombie-fied image)
- a cool bed cos no1 slept on it for days =p
- bad eyesight
- did i lose weight? cos my pants are dropping! @.@
- a working system!!
- oh, and a pleased supervisor!!! hahaha… (and a relieved me)

Lessons learned:
- procrastination is deadly. Don’t mess with it!
- being a perfectionist is sickening at times of "last minute", BUT, it
pays well if you know how to handle it (however, you may lose it if you
can’t!)
- A team requires communication (as well as covering up for each other when things go wrong :p)
- Never take Nescafe whenever u want to sleep after a hard day’s work!!!
- The Internet is damn useful (like duh!)
- Profitable hardship makes everything worthwhile
- Treasure your loved ones at ALL times

Conclusion: I can finally go back Penang!! haha

dear bloggy,

last sem’s results were released today and i….. PASSED!
wee… pass all my papers.
anybody wanna reward me? hehe (^.^)

so anyway, i’m STILL in kl doing my fyp.
will be going back pg on the 1st NOV…(i hope)
gonna have my fyp testing next FRI.. so wish me luck.
hope that everything goes well. *gulp*

my dream(right now): wish fyp to end fast!!!

come to think of it, time passes by soooo fast.
itz already 1st week of 2nd sem.
b4 dat i rmb grumbling about not being able to go for industrial training.
and now…. wa laa… my frenz are back from their training.
itz great to see every1 again…

dear bloggy,

It’s been a long time since I go back Penang… *sobz*
Penang, I’m so sorry I could’nt go back to see u!
Busy doing my fyp here in kl. *Arghhh*
At times like this, I wish I have a laptop!!!!
Sigh…

FYP testing dateline is so near…. omg…
Super ‘kancheong‘ now… ganbate, elle, GANBATE!!!
after all this then only start planning how to release.
So,for today’s progress…
finally get de sql server to connect to de web application.. FINALLY!!
wanna complete 1 module by tonite.

So anyway, my dad came down to KL today for his training.
huhu.. kena mini lectur-.. erm.. i mean, advise… from him.
@.@  (-.-")
.FYP. FYP .FYP. FYP .FYP. FYP .FYP. FYP .FYP.
lalalalalalala…. driving me half crazy.

Elle,

GANBATE!
Yeah! You can fo it!!!

(…actually is you MUST do it -.-")

dear bloggy,

[Start]
I woke up this morning (12pm considered morning ar? =p)
ok… so i woke up in de afternoon today.
Wow… got McD eat ler wei.

Large some more.
[haiz... dear ar.. fat liao la... still McD -.-")
but not bad ler... got ppl serve me lunch wor.. haha.
i wanna have birthday everyday ler like dat.. can?
hahahahaha...

[Middle]
after lunch, stayed at home whole day.
*sobz* dear din bring me go out…
so boring at home.. see dear watch movie there.
boring.. boring.. boring…
OMG

thoughts:
"haih… dear no bring me go out ler… aspect me sit at home watch series movie on my 21st birthday meh. *sobz* very sien ler. Forgot celebrate my birthday d… *hurt* *hurt* Some more stay back here at KL, din go back hometown ler… *hurt* *hurt* *dying*"

Wow… gas slowly building up.
1 hour. 2 hours. 3 hours…… gas accumulating more & more.
watch movie thr osso dowan choy me.
cannot tahan liao… go take a walk outside to take in some fresh air.

[ENDing]
During dinner time, i went over to dear’s place to go dinner with him.
Gas went down a bit liao… hmmm….
Open the door, whole house damn dark ler… (-.-)"
S**t… I thought nobody in de house… !@#$%
and then……………

Out pop a dark scary figure that looks like bear,
holding a birthday cake in his hands…
singing birthday song… (dat seemed a little out of tune… hehe =p)

*speechless*

i dunno wat to say…
1 minute i feel like i was gonna explode into tiny little pieces…
the next minute i feel as though in Cloud 9…
i think i’m gonna get a heart attack soon =s

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me and me only,
Happy birthday to me.

*LOL*

1 dozen flowers. do u know wat it symbolizes?

(no cake cutting pic cos no camera that time… haha)

*smilez*
Thanx, dear.
I will remember it alwayz.
Love ya.

dear new friendster bloggy,

it’s about time i ‘merasmikan‘ ur clean empty page with all my
dreams, nightmares, fantasies, wonders, thoughts, feelings,
stupidity, wisdom, junkies, and a whole lot of craps…

i’m turning 21 in a day’s time..
i’ve spent de last 21 years on this polluted planet earth,
filled with gazzilion homo sapiens and other living creature…
and still manage to survive till this day.
so watz de big deal of 21?
adulthood?
receive my key and off i go… OR NOT!
hmmmm….

pre-thoughts:
"omg… i’m old!!!!"
"what!!??? adulthood?? NOOOooooo….!!"
"have i wasted too much time? wat did i achieved so far?"

post-thoughts:
"Am I gonna get my own car soon or wat?"
"LIST: get a job, a house, a car, all de furnitures in IKEA… oh, and money!"
"wait 7 more years b4 i get married…. or not" =p
"responsibilites, responsibilites and more responsibilites…"
"worries, worries and more worries…"

so anyway, i’m assuming no celebration for my 21st birthday. *sobs*
My gratitudes to TAR College for setting the final year project(fyp) due date
so soon… and damn near my birthday.
FYP…. why r u so mean?
wat did i do to forsake u?
(-.-)"

*tick tock tick tock*
5am in de morning and i’m blogging to tell the world about myself,
a typical turning-21-years-old-soon girl who got ntg else better to do.
(darn, i still have fyp! …ok la, forget dat part)

things that u don’t need to know:
- need to go shop for supplies soon
- my hair is still black
- i have eyebags @.@
- i think i’m getting fatter (sigh…)
- any1 can get me to slim down fast? i will love u forever!
- i’m going to bath now (no, i havent slept… and it’s not weird)